A silly title, but a very real circumstance I found myself caught in last night. As a result of the pandemonium and recent store closures and hour changes, we find ourselves having to go to unsavory places (aka Walmart) at times that are against our normal "shopping flow". This instance was very interesting... We were in line purchasing water and essentials, when I noticed a Walmart worker purchasing Angel Soft toilet paper. The thought jumped through my head "How did this (expletive deleted) get his hands on toilet paper!?" For a moment, I was enraged. I immediately reflected and thought, "Cory... you have toilet paper at home!" Still, regardless of what I have and don't have, I found myself caught in the mess. I found myself becoming more vulnerable to the collective fear over toilet paper. This really brought forth some interesting insight into the collective conscience and how it effects us all, and how easily it can leak into our field and create the pandemonium we are trying to escape.
So, after this recognition, I knew I had to unplug from the very thing I've been trying to escape. But, even in doing so, the trying to escape can actually suck us back into it. Rising above the situation can be extremely difficult, even for those of us who are overtly aware and conscious of ourselves and the programming. This is why it's important for some of us to "turn off" the media, to not discuss what's going on. Not because we are bypassing the experience, we just don't want to create new programming within us, as the susceptibility of acquiring new programming is VERY real. So, today, I have to ask myself, am I being 100% mindful of my consumption of media? Are even my jokes about various topics creating some underlying fear regarding the topic? Is engaging in what's going on helping me or hurting me? This is a self-care checklist I find myself having to review moment to moment to make sure I hold my field strong and feel secure in my body and in the situation at hand. So, at the end of the day, I have to ask myself, "What is the issue, tissue?". It all stems from "lack" and "fear of running out". That I won't be divinely guided and supported on my journey. That I won't have enough. This is that systemic breakdown of those who have WAY TOO MUCH. The WAY TOO MUCH are losing their "much", and so everyone is feeling this extreme lack and control leave their systems, including my own. The layers of separation in this programming are indicative of how deeply embedded it truly is in our psyche and energy body. So, we go back within, allow ourselves to switch focus, and to take the time we need for ourselves to feel abundant, secure, and divinely loved.